“Apostasy is, in reality, a rebellion against Jehovah.” —Watchtower 1993 October 1 p.19

Actually, Apostasy is a rebellion against God, and God’s name is not Jehovah.

This post addresses a letter from my mother, a Jehovah’s Witness.

I came home, married another “Witness”, and now my life is—once again—a living hell.

Hopefully this serves a portion of “the ‘truth’ about ‘the truth'”…

Jehovah’s Witnesses refer to their division of Christianity as “the truth”—they are just another religion masquerading as faith in action—Come out of her my people!—”I AM the Way, the TRUTH, the life…”

When I was arrested and held for 24 hours—naked, pepper sprayed, etc—my mother responded by trying to make it a condition of release that I’d remove the COPPER IUD I have as my form of birth control. In the past she’s also burned all my Father’s possessions to keep me from demons—including his painting of her and I with him in paradise on earth. He died when I was three and a half.

I receive countless emails from her — NO LOVE — just harassment.

Apostasy according to the Watchtower

“Persons who deliberately spread (stubbornly hold to and speak about) teachings contrary to Bible truth as taught by Jehovah’s Witnesses are apostates.” —Pay Attention to Yourselves and to All the Flock p.94

“Apostasy is abandoning or deserting the worship and service of God, actually a rebellion against Jehovah God. Some apostates profess to know and serve God but reject teachings or requirements set out in his Word. Others claim to believe the Bible but reject Jehovah’s organization.” Reasoning From the Scriptures p.34

It is interesting to dissect these statements from the perspective of spiritual law and logic.

ANGELA: JEHOVAH is NOT GOD [Almighty: see Psalms 83:18 (NWT), 2 Thessalonians 2 (YouVersion)], but is A GOD.

WATCHTOWER: “Well, apostates are “mentally diseased,” and they seek to infect others with their disloyal teachings. (1 Tim. 6:3, 4) Jehovah, the Great Physician…”

ANGELA: Sticks and stones don’t break my bones… See 5150-5250, Sovereign Citizen and “here’s to the crazy ones…

WATCHTOWER: “Strong hope enables us to resist apostates and their gangrenous “empty speeches.””—Watchtower 2013 Apr 15 p.11 

ANGELA: Oh well, God says: “Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you.”

WATCHTOWER: “Satan was the first creature to turn apostate. Modern-day apostates display characteristics similar to those of the Devil. Their mind may be poisoned by a critical attitude toward individuals in the congregations, Christian elders, or the Governing Body. Some apostates oppose the use of the divine name, Jehovah. They are not interested in learning about Jehovah or in serving him. Like their father, Satan, apostates target people of integrity. (John 8:44) No wonder servants of Jehovah avoid all contact with them!” — Examining the Scriptures Daily 2011 Aug 18 p.83

ANGELA: God’s name is divine, but is not Jehovah.

ANGELA:  “Apostates “quietly” bring their ideas into the congregation, like criminals who secretly bring things into a country. Apostates use “counterfeit words.” This means that they say things that make their false ideas sound true, like criminals who make false documents look real. They try to get as many people as possible to believe their “deceptive teachings.” Peter also said that they like twisting the Scriptures. They explain Bible verses in the wrong way to make others believe their ideas. (2 Peter 2:1, 3, 13; 3:16) Apostates do not care about us. If we follow them, we will leave the road to everlasting life.

The Bible says that apostates are mentally diseased and that they use their teachings to make others think like them. (1 Timothy 6:3, 4) Jehovah is like that good doctor. He clearly tells us to stay away from false teachers. We must always be determined to follow his warning.

What must we do to avoid false teachers? We do not speak to them or invite them into our houses. We also do not read their books, watch them on television, read what they write on the Internet, or add our own comments about what they write on the Internet. Why are we so determined to avoid them? First of all, it is because we love “the God of truth.” So we do not want to listen to false teachings that go against the truth in God’s Word.”— Watchtower 2011 Jul 15 p.11 


WATCHTOWER: We will disfellowship you for the third time if we find you an apostate. Please see our references from our publications so you may have a proper perspective our God:

  • Watchtower 2004 Feb 15 p.28
    “It would be a mistake to think that you need to listen to apostates or to read their writings to refute their arguments. Their twisted, poisonous reasoning can cause spiritual harm and can contaminate your faith like rapidly spreading gangrene. (2 Timothy 2:16, 17) Rather, imitate God’s response to apostates. Job said of Jehovah: “Before him no apostate will come in.” – Job 13:16.”
  • Watchtower 2000 May 1 p.10 
    “Some apostates are increasingly using various forms of mass communication, including the Internet, to spread false information about Jehovah’s Witnesses.”
  • Watchtower 1993 November 1 p.19 
    “True Christians share Jehovah’s feelings toward such apostates; they are not curious about apostate ideas. On the contrary, they “feel a loathing” toward those who have made themselves God’s enemies, but they leave it to Jehovah to execute vengeance.”
  • Watchtower 1994 July 1 p.12 
    “For one thing, some of the apostate literature presents falsehoods by means of “smooth talk” and “counterfeit words.” (Romans 16:17, 18; 2 Peter 2:3) What would you expect from the table of demons? … Those who have continued to feed at Satan’s spiritual table, the table of demons, will be forced to attend a literal meal, no, not as partakers, but as the main course-to their destruction!”
  • Watchtower 1992 July 15 pp.12-13 Christ Hated Lawlessness-Do You? 
    “The obligation to hate lawlessness also applies to all activity by apostates. Our attitude toward apostates should be that of David, who declared: “Do I not hate those who are intensely hating you.”
  • Watchtower 1985 July 15 p.31
    “Such ones [apostates] willfully abandoning the Christian congregation thereby become part of the ‘antichrist.’ (1 John 2:18, 19)”

They say, “Apostasy is, in reality, a rebellion against Jehovah.”

I completely agree—I stand for the apostasy against the false God of the world, Jehovah. I am a child of God, and believe that “the truth” is a man, Christ the Messiah who was sent to earth in the first century and will return for the ‘last generation’. He said, “I am the truth”. I do not deny him.

  • J is a new letter—
  • hovah is a Hebrew word in scripture— It means ____________ and refers to ___________.
  • what would Abraham have called his God? I AM _____
  • How did Y’shua teach us to pray…? Our Father…

The Love of a Jehovah’s Witness Mother…

This is a letter from my mother. I wish I had the ability to simply annotate inline. Anyone know how?

I haven’t asked from her “LOVE”—I’d prefer to have a mother. What I wouldn’t give to have my life back.


We all want our old Angela back.

Which Angela is that? Do you mean you want to know me after missing all my adult life while I was disfellowshipped as a Jehovah’s Witness from the Watchtower? Or do you mean you want me to go back to being a 12 year old before the moment I was baptized and started dealing with the demons day-in-and-day-out???

I am sure you would agree this situation is out of hand. We are all clueless on how to help you. I am afraid you are going to take this to where you will never be able to come back. You have not been playing with a full deck for awhile.

Nope, I have more than a full deck. I have the scriptures, and cognitive science—Cognitive science is the interdisciplinary scientific study of the mind and its processes. It examines what cognition is, what it does and how it works. It includes research on intelligence and behavior, especially focusing on how information is represented, processed, and transformed (in faculties such as perception, language, memory, reasoning, and emotion) within nervous systems (human or other animal) and machines (e.g. computers). Cognitive science consists of multiple research disciplines, including psychology, artificial intelligence, philosophy, neuroscience, linguistics, and anthropology. It spans many levels of analysis, from low-level learning and decision mechanisms to high-level logic and planning; from neural circuitry to modular brain organization. The fundamental concept of cognitive science is “that thinking can best be understood in terms of representational structures in the mind and computational procedures that operate on those structures.” (Wikipedia)

The cars kept almost hitting us being distracted with your entertainment yesterday. It put Grandma in a bad position. It has caused her to straighten up in many ways and making this recovery her own.

Yes, I see Grandma has improved based on my taking a spiritual stand against Jehovah and what the Watchtower deems ‘apostasy’, but how is it that you think I was causing cars to almost keep hitting you guys, and what part of this is ‘entertainment’?

When I first came to California I felt guilty back then because we didn’t give you a stronger stand about how … up smoking pot could make you.

Actually, my chemistry is more like my father’s than yours. Remember how you told me daddy would come home from work, smoke, then go down to the basement and paint…? Yeah, I want that. I do not like your life, and I do not react to God’s herbs the same way you do. You were stoned, daddy was enlightened.

I had no clue of the [copper] IUD and the effects it had on you. We were only focused on the lasting effects of the Clonazapam, because of Graydon’s funeral episode. There was also the side effects what they injected you with at the hospital.

I did. I looked it up before doing it. I conferred with a co-worker, Dan, about it when I stopped taking the birth control pill realizing that all it did was kill my need for it in the first place! Momma, did you know that your daughters and nieces all also have either tried or have IUD’s? Sorry momma, you’ve been busy knocking on empty doors…

Also, benzodiazepines such as Clonazepam have a fast onset of action and high effectiveness rate and low toxicity in overdose but, as most medications, it may have drawbacks due to adverse reactions including paradoxical effects and drowsiness. I DID NOT know about THAT.

Now we know what was the root of the problem, the copper and what pulled you out of it. And you are, have chosen then the mire once again and to remain there even those the fun has gone from it.

I was high copper, a copper personality, before I ever got the IUD. You never even knew me from the years I was disfellowshipped your having been loyal to Jehovah over family LOVE. So… who is the WE and what do you KNOW?

Your Dad never whacked. He gave it up for the family and the truth. He never looked back. He loved life and it was evident with the spirit he showed. The paradise was very real to him and he couldn’t understand why I couldn’t see myself there. Now I think of the there as right here minus wickedness and crap like this.

I don’t know what “whacked” is, and he gave it up and died. The paradise was so real to him that he painted it, and painted us in it… did he smoke when he did that painting? God created WEED // Which came first the chicken or the egg? Momma, you BURNED PARADISE destroying my daddy’s possessions for ‘demonic influences’ sake. Who is under what control? He could see it, you couldn’t // He painted paradise, you burned it.

Lets look back—

  • The violin was clearly an issue, now it is a known side effect of copper toxicity, schizophrenic behavior. Some thing you can take control of.

They burned my violin from 1710 which was reconstructed by E.J. Cooke of Charlotte.

  • Brad was clearly an issue in your life, he is history.

My ex-husband was a Jehovah’s Witness and abusive. I was abused for four years, then disfellowshipped as a consequence.

  • You had major setbacks spiritually. There was a lot of demonic influence, no one know how to handle them, you. You continue to fight the for your spirituality and you can pull out of this.

I was never set back, I was simply restrained. “In the multitude of the evil ones a people is breached and the one that keeps the law is blessed.” See also 2 Thessalonians 2 for the ‘restraint’ that is removed prior to apostasy being revealed by Christ’s presence.

  • You made major moves and took on major responsibilities and handled them quiet well all on your own.

Yes, this supports the premise that I am adult, of sound and capable mind, with one helluva C.V. and discreet.

  • You endured all the persecution within the workplace and all the times you were screwed. You survived.


  • You have been free of man’s hold with medicines. You were able to break away from the Clonazapam, you didn’t give into the pressure of the nicotine. (I found out that Vallium is another Benzo).

Yes. I am clear that GOD created cannabis, named for the region it came from—the promised land, and MAN created pharmaceuticals which are dangerous to my paradoxical neurological system. See Revelation for pharmakeia.

Pharmakeia φαρμακείᾳ is the Greek word for pharmacy, which is the practice and making of medication and vitamins. It also refers to the making of spell-giving 

Look back, what is it that still has a hold on Angela that she cannot change?

Nothing absolutely nothing. This mess is your choice.

You made a choice to get on that plane. I begged you not to bring this baggage back with you. Again, everything anyone could ever want is set before you, while it is that those kids and Darryl can still see this as a disease and can respect you, you HAVE to get that thing out. Balance crap, get the source OUT.

Grandma called you yesterday, “a chip off the old block”. Do you have to put the law enforcement or us in the position of putting you in a safe place. Wanda took the wrap for that but now I remind her, Wanda had no choice. The law says they have the right to do anything they deem necessary to protect you and others.

They don’t listen to family, they don’t listen to a POA. I feel certain no one will allow me to bail you out the next time. You used manipulation against me. You knew I did it with hopes that you would come out and head straight to the ER to get that thing out or at least when the cuprum settled your ass down a bit. You used it against me before ever leaving the building. Everyone felt you need to stay there.

Look at you smiling while you put us in the same position. What mockery. Angela, get real, having to smoke in front of your Grandmother to get in touch with the real life. Good grief, then to dump smelly crap on her. Now that is pretty low. How much lower are you going to CHOSE to go.

You have no choice but to get your shit together and that means getting that thing out. You were playing concerned mother and criticizing others. Those kids did not get that way on accident. You seemed so concerned about their wellbeing. Think of where you are taking them. YOU are just adding fuel to their past trauma, drama. Writing their history. Your continue to hold everyone else accountable for the positions you put them in. Do you really think the kids are not going to hold this nonsense against you? I have made excuses for you to everyone. (Darryl needs to stop too). No more Angela. Get real.

If you are not going to do anything to change this out come. I’ll manage to find the money for that trip back you so badly want. California is much better able to handle this type of situation. I will remind Darryl he did what he ought to of done, beyond the call of duty, commend him for trying and encourage him to never look back washing his hands clean of it.

You can only help those that help themselves.

Jehovah protects us by protecting us from ones that defiantly slam him and who choose to live a debauched life. We have braitently went against his counsel, and you know it, extending our mercy with hopes that you will get a gripe on your problem. Playing us all as fools.

Ironic, as a parent of a three year old, I would be obligated to take you to the hospital if you swallowed a penny. At thirty they put it in you and I have no control over getting it out.

Like I told Darryl sometimes you have to let the card fall as they will.

Just a question, were you planning on helping me run the nut house or were you wanting me to set it up as a patient? Oh, we did that once before didn’t we? Now we have two, and with two committed, paranoid, fearful of your every move. And you think you had the raw end of the deal, WRONG.

Just as both of you girls have chosen your drug of choice, we have chooses to stand by you. With what thanks so we get. Battered.

There is nothing I can do but enable you or prolong the inevitable. You give us NO choice.

You know we all love you. What you are displaying is no love toward us. Your selfish, manipulative ways MUST stop and you need to get your shit together or fly out.

You have stoled much of my time selfishly from the other girls. What I have learnt in research for you may help us all. I must move on to where my assistance is appreciated.

Because of my childhood, I have always day a tendency of codependency. You are not healthy for me in this aspect. There is nothing I can do to help. You leave me no choice.

If you have evidence that you are being mistreated you can call the law enforcement they are the ones trained, yeh right, to handle that. I saw no evidence but to think of your place as a safe heaven. It all seems to be apart of the ride you did not bargain for. Running off to get high is a stupid teenager prank not something for a grown woman to be doing. Grow up take life back into your own hands.

We all braced ourselves for the worst with your last escopaid. Something has to happen. That man needs sleep. He has others that enjoy his company and need his attention. Pure selfishness.

We don’t know what to do with you threatening us with your life. Pulling at our heart strings. You had us all under your control, your beck and call. You are the smart one with all these brain cells to waste.


I marvel at my mother. She is an amazing and brilliant woman, but also living in the delusional world of the Watchtower’s Jehovah’s Witnesses. She’s also an amazing mistress of the Word. She writes so cleverly—did you notice how easily she implied that I threaten to take my life, while what she means is that my life and how I chose to live it is what is the threat, as not and never shall it be suicide! No? I guess you’d have to know her. She’s awesome, and an amazing grace.

Since speaking out about my faith in God — I was silent for many years having lived among so many friends who are disrespectful of faith — I have been invited into so many CHURCHES.

“Do not forsake the gathering of ourselves together…” means grab your friends and plan a dinner—don’t forget the bread and wine, and olive oil. Talk about your lives, and above all else: LOVE.

Because by this they will know you.

And that means everlasting life.

2 Thessalonians 2 from The Voice


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